It´s an freaking christmas nightmare

What did I wrong?
Was it my fault?
Don’t you see I’m braking apart?
I’m not that strong
I try do dissemble all my pain
To always give you a happy smile
You were to absolved my yourself
To proud and vain
But now I can’t go on like
I’m just too fragile


Don’t piss my back and tell me its rain.
Stop just pretending all is fine
Why don’t you get it?
I’m not even sure
If you will regret it
When I’m dead


I never wanted to hurt you
To get on you’re nerves
To impure myself upon you
Did I become what I deserve?
But I can’t go on like this
Don’t leaves me cold anymore
It’s really hard on me
To hard, I’m afraid
Don’t want my façade to degrade


Don’t piss my back and tell me its rain.
Stop just pretending all is fine
Why don’t you get it?
I’m not even sure
If you will regret it
When I’m dead


It aches so much
Every time I’m near you
I’m weak
I feel like dying
Not overreacting or lying
In my heart there is this huge leak
I have to end it now
Or I will burst in many parts
And that’s all I know

Don’t piss my back and tell me its rain.
Stop just pretending all is fine
Why don’t you get it?
I’m not even sure
If you will regret it
When I’m dead