It´s an freaking christmas nightmare

Now I’m standing here alone
No ones there
So I hang up the telephone
Don’t know what I can do
I’m feeling so empty
Nothings going on with you
I’m lying in my bed
Waiting for a sign
A tear I trying to break out
It feels like dying

I can’t describe it
I can’t form or draw my feelings
It’s so strange and familiar at the same time
I don’t want it to be mine
I’m feeling alone

I’ve been left
No one stopped or waited for me
I’m checking my mails
Looking for post
But seriously
Who is this person I want to be?
Someone liked? Adored even loved?
Of course I do
But such a miracle can’t become true

I can’t describe it
I can’t form or draw my feelings
It’s so strange and familiar at the same time
I don’t want it to be mine
I’m feeling alone

I try to break out
To cry my pain away
Just to scream out my feelings
But I’m just still
Staring at the door
Seeking deeper in this desperation
A bit of my blood falls on the floor
I’m waiting for tears
That I will shook myself back and forth
Will do something unexpected
But don’t know
It is it still worth

I can’t describe it
I can’t form or draw my feelings
It’s so strange and familiar at the same time
I don’t want it to be mine
I’m feeling alone