It´s an freaking christmas nightmare

Why?
How can this has happen? Is this really true
Couldn’t it be just a fake?
I feel so disappointed, how could he had done that?
I mean I thought that he were special, not like anyone else
And now there is this huge leak
And I don’t know how I can fill it
It hurts so damn much
Another thing that you did
And it’s the finishing touch

I am mad, did you thought of the consequences
How much you would hurt me
And it makes me so sad to know
That you’re not mine anymore
You don’t belong to me
All my imagination
Just disappeared without a trace

You were the reason when I smiled
Made all the bad things go away
Helped me through every dark moment
So now I’m bagging you to stay
Please return, what you did
We both know what a mistake it was
And I see it in you’re face
You’re not happy, with all this
So come back to me
Give me finally a kiss


I am mad, did you thought of the consequences
How much you would hurt me
And it makes me so sad to know
That you’re not mine anymore
You don’t belong to me
All my imagination
Just disappeared without a trace


Do you really think
That I can deal with this
Not burst in tears every time
When I see you with her
Can I pretend that everything is fine?
Will I get over it
And become happy again
Even when I now, what I’ll miss
And it’s so fucking hart
To just go away and leave you
But you made you’re choice
And I don’t wanna stand in the way


I am mad, did you thought of the consequences
How much you would hurt me
And it makes me so sad to know
That you’re not mine anymore
You don’t belong to me
All my imagination
Just disappeared without a trace

So for now an
Our ways separated
Friendship slowly faded
And I hope that I will made it
To say finally
Goodbye to you

Can I dare to tell him the truth?
To show him just how much he means to me
That he’s the one I love
Can I let go of my priorities
And just be myself for a moment
No secrets anymore

Could I?
Should I?
Let myself into that
Open my mind for him
And just say
I’m in love with you

How would he take it?
What would be his reaction?
And does he feel the same?
How could I handle it?
If he wouldn’t share my feelings
Could we still be friends?

Could I?
Should I?
Let myself into that
Open my mind for him
And just say
I’m in love with you

I’ve already done
Something like this, and it wasn’t easy
It ended not very well
I was so disappointed
Don’t want to feel that shame and blame again
So is it really smart to do it?

Could I?
Should I?
Let myself into that
Open my mind for him
And just say
I’m in love with you

Now I’m standing here alone
No ones there
So I hang up the telephone
Don’t know what I can do
I’m feeling so empty
Nothings going on with you
I’m lying in my bed
Waiting for a sign
A tear I trying to break out
It feels like dying

I can’t describe it
I can’t form or draw my feelings
It’s so strange and familiar at the same time
I don’t want it to be mine
I’m feeling alone

I’ve been left
No one stopped or waited for me
I’m checking my mails
Looking for post
But seriously
Who is this person I want to be?
Someone liked? Adored even loved?
Of course I do
But such a miracle can’t become true

I can’t describe it
I can’t form or draw my feelings
It’s so strange and familiar at the same time
I don’t want it to be mine
I’m feeling alone

I try to break out
To cry my pain away
Just to scream out my feelings
But I’m just still
Staring at the door
Seeking deeper in this desperation
A bit of my blood falls on the floor
I’m waiting for tears
That I will shook myself back and forth
Will do something unexpected
But don’t know
It is it still worth

I can’t describe it
I can’t form or draw my feelings
It’s so strange and familiar at the same time
I don’t want it to be mine
I’m feeling alone

What is this?
What is his new feeling inside me?
There is this temptation
I try to fight
I never had those longings, such a strong diseur of just one thing!
You did this to me
You’re the reason why this al is happening to me
I even ask you to do it
But seriously are you worth it?
Of course I’ve got to spent a whole eternity on you’re site
But this new feeling is so strong
Right now I need something to bite

I want Blood
My new living elixir
Give me Blood
From human or deer
I don’t care as long as you hand me this pure poison
My red toxic
Throw away all the good deeds
Those things like being nice or honest
Show the world that I’m new
That I’m bad!

I was a normal human
Always steady and neat
Then I met you
And my world changed
You told me things
I shouldn’t know
Shows me thing
I never was allowed to see
You brought me in this world
And I’m really thankfully
But now this new passion
This oh so urgent diseur
That I have to satisfy now.
And I don’t know how but it’s more important than you
And that’s sucks
But that’s the truth so step aside
And let me become wild

I want Blood
My new living elixir
Give me Blood
From human or deer
I don’t care as long as you hand me this pure poison
My red toxic
Throw away all the good deeds
Those things like being nice or honest
Show the world that I’m new
That I’m bad!

Will my love to you save me from doing all these things?
Can I overcome this temptation?
And be you’re little girl
The person you fell in love with
Not the creature you sired
Ehm…no (laugh) ha-ha
You’re so wrong
When you say I will do it
That you have faith in me
That we will go through it
I have this energy and will
When I just look in you’re eyes
I mean their really nice
But you’re not worth the price

I want Blood
My new living elixir
Give me Blood
From human or deer
I don’t care as long as you hand me this pure poison
My red toxic
Throw away all the good deeds
Those things like being nice or honest
Show the world that I’m new
That I’m bad!

Yeah I’m baaaaaaaad
You’re little goodie idiot xD

No it’s over
The curtains finally closed
Everyone had left
The truth is exposed
I wish you were here
Give me comfort and love
Help me to do it
My little turtle dove

I need energy, faith and hope
To go along without you
This so windy street
Standing here alone
And feeling so weak
But I have to do it now
I close the coffin

Everyone is so nice
Always offer me a hand
Giving me a call
But this world is just so bland
They want me to look forward
That I start to life
Say goodbye to the past
Give you a last kiss

I need energy, faith and hope
To go along without you
This so windy street
Standing here alone
And feeling so weak
But I have to do it now
I close the coffin

I think I’m ready
Finally to let you go
Give you, you’re deserved peace
But it’s, hard cuz I love you so
Just one thing I´ve got left
My hope to see you again
That we will be back together
Yeah…that’s my plan

I need energy, faith and hope
To go along without you
This so windy street
Standing here alone
And feeling so weak
But I have to do it now
I close the coffin

You’re gone just away
I disappear without you’re love
I’m feeling fear
To never see you touch you
Even hear you
And it’s a fact
I’m a rack
Can’t live won’t go on
What I’m going to do
Dispense on you

My life is dark
I am feeling so cold
Raindrops falling on my face
Followed by my tears
Try to cry away
Al my fears

You were my love my everything
My guardian angel
Never been just a thing
I am wearing you’re ring
Can’t take it off
Would break my heart in two
Because I love you
Even if you’re not here
Can’t see clear
My mind is blinded by the thoughts
If giving up

My life is dark
I am feeling so cold
Raindrops falling on my face
Followed by my tears
Try to cry away
Al my fears

Will I have the guts to make it true?
To cut right through
Won’t give up
Don’t make a break
I will drown in my blood and tears
If you don’t come and save me
Don’t make me pay my fee
I will come and set my soul free

My life is dark
I am feeling so cold
Raindrops falling on my face
Followed by my tears
Try to cry away
Al my fears
But there’s nothing I can do
Cuz I love you!

Fake a smile
Show the world ur best face expression
Prove what you learned
And let the rest, believe ur lies
Don’t let them to close to u
And be strong, have the will
To do what u wanna do
Keep ur thoughts silently in ur mind
Don’t look sad
Never show ur real feelings
Pretend that everything is fine
And you’ll see
They already bought ur lies

Never think if I would hurt them
If they’d discovered the truth
Just think for this moment
Bout me, and what I really need
Try to be a bit selfish
Just to get to you

I’m starting to hide
Under my beloved mask again
Fixed all the mistakes
Who let it burst the last time
Become a better actor
In this oh so familiar role
Play what the audience want to see
At the outside I’m shining
Inside I’m crying
But they never should know
Cuz they would cancel my plan
Talk me out of this
But I’m going to stand tall
And give them a smile

Never think if I would hurt them
If they’d discovered the truth
Just think for this moment
Bout me, and what I really need
Try to be a bit selfish
Just to get to you


When I’m done with the play
Everyone will be happy
Thinking I’m good with the situation
That I’m over all my problems
They won’t ecspect me to do it
Not worrying anymore
I’ve become so good in this part
Better then I thought
Always with the goal for eyes
Straight to the top and above
But now the huge final starts
And I’m repaired
So let the show begin

What did I wrong?
Was it my fault?
Don’t you see I’m braking apart?
I’m not that strong
I try do dissemble all my pain
To always give you a happy smile
You were to absolved my yourself
To proud and vain
But now I can’t go on like
I’m just too fragile


Don’t piss my back and tell me its rain.
Stop just pretending all is fine
Why don’t you get it?
I’m not even sure
If you will regret it
When I’m dead


I never wanted to hurt you
To get on you’re nerves
To impure myself upon you
Did I become what I deserve?
But I can’t go on like this
Don’t leaves me cold anymore
It’s really hard on me
To hard, I’m afraid
Don’t want my façade to degrade


Don’t piss my back and tell me its rain.
Stop just pretending all is fine
Why don’t you get it?
I’m not even sure
If you will regret it
When I’m dead


It aches so much
Every time I’m near you
I’m weak
I feel like dying
Not overreacting or lying
In my heart there is this huge leak
I have to end it now
Or I will burst in many parts
And that’s all I know

Don’t piss my back and tell me its rain.
Stop just pretending all is fine
Why don’t you get it?
I’m not even sure
If you will regret it
When I’m dead